Been silent for a while, had an episode with the comic after this one, it’s almost done, but I mentally\emotionally unable to return. It’s allright, because I am trying to focus my creativity on my script. What’s the status? I found a good writing partner who also also take over the role of a main character.
Together we’ve gone through the script; now I’m putting in the edit, and am glad I went down this route. Some crucial changes were made, not major story changing ones, but ones that add more depth. The voice is still the same, but the tone is changing. I like this portion of writing because the hardest portion is done, it could also be called the easiest, as once you write a story, editing is what makes it into something of real value. Some might make a good first draft, but its not necessary. Speed doesn’t count.
Speaking of which, my goal is to try to make this in 6 months. This involves moving people once funding is acquired, and story boarding as soon as this edit is over. I can hear the music, I can see the process, I can also hear the words and see the movement. Set the tone, carry at least one theme uniform throughout the tale. Have fun.
I’d like to get it in the hands of the producer before Thanksgiving, so its up to me and only me to see it get to the point of production. In theory making a movie is a simple concept, especially if I don’t want this to be in theaters. Hollywood doesn’t make movies, it makes money. The movies are just the vehicle for moving it around and investing in it to trap more ‘outside’ wealth, i.e. our wealth either stagnates or its used against us.
Overall, I hope to be able to return to the Church as soon as I can. I’m not running away, as I would still like to get married, but I feel like I have talents I’m not utilizing because I ‘love’ my own suffering too much. Comfort is an ideal, anything more and it becomes shackles all too easily. Self discipline is lacking, but without critical (self)thinking, self discipline is useless. We are all struggling, from what I see, the work is there, but the proper workers are all scattered around far away from each other. The frustrated people take it out on themselves and others, and the ‘ones who separate’ profit. Tikkun Olam has real meaning now. Those who Repair VS. Those who Separate. The age old conflict.
This is why Honor is so important. Serving in the military is not the only way to be Honorable (all honor is equal), nor does serving in a military automatically make you Honorable. Duty (and True Singular Loyalty) is the only way to attain any Honor. The Ruling Class is rarely if ever, honorable among themselves, but the working class has it as a requirement for any solvent government\republic. If the Ruling Class is seen as completely without honor, not only do civil divides occur, but the ability to rule lessens greatly, and ‘their’ replacement becomes necessary. We are all human, afterall.
Thank you your time, and I wish you good luck and success on all of your endeavors.
It’s a piece I did for my streamer friend. These are fun little exercises that allowed me to take apart some of my past creations and have a little fun. I guess I could add the other decal, a picture of Beamus’s head and waving his hand.
I know there are a few ‘mistakes’ but they are now part of the style. I’m not going back to this design, and I may do another.
Once I hit the goal of doing a strip a day, I am going to look into animation. Thanks to the internet I can do quick little lessons and slowly improve. Work also demands new skills, and I must magic up desire to do those, while also dealing with things and stuff. At this point I couldn’t stop my existential research if I tried. Seventeen plus years this has been going on.
I wish the body of Christ could fund me, but Mary has been replaced by the GodQueen, and without her finding an Christos and returning back to the Church, it will forever be enslaved by Chaos. Gotta take it all one day at a time, since the Self is in all things, enjoying each moment of this Distance of the Selfs willful choice to experience, while also serving Order or Chaos to enhance the experience.
Not sure why that last comic is like that. I will post a new comic and see if there is a problem with the comic…being too large? Or if there is a problem with the widget, I believe it needs to be updated. I’ll see if I can update it.
I joined webcomics.com, and hopefully I can find more impetus to draw better and better each time. Things I need to do is wake up earlier, I would love to wake up at 5 am and do some drawin’s practice. Eventually I’d like to form a discord group with local people to get together at that time, so we can all wake up and learn something. I don’t care if its their first time with a guitar or keyboard, as long as its an hour of day, and we all do it together. The age of individual is drawing to a close, and there is no better way to end it then with friends.
To be honest I am kinda wiped from writing politics, I have other sites for that. It’s fun to write about things and stuff that I like. I wouldn’t begrudge anyone to write about what they love… as long as they use reason to back it up. I know I am playing a little fast and loose with logic, but its to cover from my own shortcomings with my art. 10+ years and this is as good as I can do it. I’m way better than I used to be (see my deviant art stuff), but I don’t feel like an artist. Not enough confidence in the pencil, not yet. I won’t give up, no I won’t back down. So many strips have been drawn, and many more I wish to draw. Let’s hope I get better.
I haven’t “sold” my script yet. Part of me says I should do a kickstarter and try to crowd-fund it. As long as the wrong people do not fund it, it shouldn’t matter, right?
Thank you for reading this, and I wish you the best of luck if ALL of your endeavors.
I want to have at least one comic up before the end of the month. My sketchbook adventures continue, that is almost at a daily thing. I’m also making some changes to my routine, it’s hard, and my dopamine receptors are messed up from… hedonism, so it’s going to take a while to get that correct.
No word on the script yet. I don’t want to work on it, but I haven’t forgotten the plan. Slowly but surely it will be done. How? I am working on that as well. So far I’m the only one carrying this banner/torch as always. You would think after nearly 20 years I would have learned my lesson: those around me don’t want to join me, they want to wallow in sadness. I don’t like complaining about this, because as far as I know a lot of my wants isn’t part of the “mission.” The “published” comics are your gift, but not the purpose. I’m not good at gifts yet.
I’ve been writing all day, and now its time for rest. Until next time.
I wish to provide more freedom to the world. Perhaps in time.
There is a LOT going on behind the scenes.
My script is nearly complete, I see some errors, I had a few emotional setbacks. I’m trying to keep my dream team of hard workers. I’m trying to keep a dream alive. There is a lot going on. So very much. Humans are more than just their physical form. Oh how I long to unlock a potential I’ve kept down.
I want to thank France for all the hard work they are putting in. They are getting the most “coverage” but there other countries that are rising up against their oppressors. There is a choice they are about to make, one that transcends the political world, I believe in them. I believe in humanity. It doesn’t have to end in genocide.
I found something in the darkness, perhaps its just insanity, my work won’t let me call it that. What is ego, and what is vanity, what is my guide? Christiandom cannot understand yet. It’s nothing bad, to be sure, its only to do what is right. I suffered greatly to stay on this path, I cannot give up. you worked too hard. It’s late, very late. I must head in.
I pray you success in all that you do, and know that the Light is with you as long as you adhere to the Truth and Love above all else.
We have a major battle ahead of us. I shall endeavor to work harder and join you on the battlefield on your level.
For now, we both must wait until the Queen gives the signal. She will not actually give it, but something she does will alert both our camps.
May we both be successful. Thank you for all you’ve done.
I love you.
-Ahavat Olam