Schwofield

I’m learning a lot in this “second” life. It is reality. Since my focus hasn’t been on this electronic world, its been more focused on what’s most important: Christ.

I am more wary and cautious of what I upload. The comic, no, it’s always my best work, it could be better, yes I am aware of all the flaws and more, it’s always lacked “focus”, but time to focus appropriately is a scrifice I haven’t been able to make. Organic and raw.

These missives. Are another thing. I am glad I am seen more as a fool than a wise man.

A lot has changed over these decades, my understanding as well, and at times the light of truth, uncreated, existing, eternal, occasional brighten my path.

It’s the choice to either Bless or Curse. The Truth is a Blessing, and a Lie is a Curse. How does one recognize the Truth through, how would anyone discern the Truth without Christ, the Creator (of all things) made incarnate? Getting close is no easy task.

That is why I now struggle with these kinds of expression. Not vanity, but not eventually leading towards Christ. It has nothing to do with (you), it’s part of the personal expression. Most of my aspects of expression are vanity, but they all cannot be. Some more so than others, this is towards the least in, for a reason. To keep a certain ‘danger’ at bay.

Again, not for (you), but again, for my own expression towards or away from Christ. I have no control over anyone else, but my own actions, like choosing which thoughts to entertain, etc. The very nature of wrestling with those decisions, it a personal one.

When it comes to sharing of that personal expression, yes you could say there are verying degrees of what’s personal and what’s not. When you add ones relation to Christ the same way one treats another human being (and their own nous and the non human creation around it), that relationship is best formed as one to one, rather than a one to many. Time is a great factor THAT choice, especially when Time is equal to money.

Look at all i’ve written, a lot of words for nothing. I liked writing it though, it was “fun”, in this one to one way, rather than trying to write to a large audience where their exists, the “masses”, where different decisions can affect too many people if the Truth or Deception is strong enough.

Thank you again Dear Reader,

For all of your support over the years.

I learned a little more about Clip Studio Paint, making it easier to change brush sizes. I do know at some point I will need to start experimenting with brush sizes more. With backgrounds especially. The Characters… I don’t know when that will be. I keep telling myself to get some sort of art guide to teach me a style. I used to have them, but never really looked at them. Time was a problem. Back then I was sharing my time with gaming.

The games did teach me things, but I didn’t apply those lessons. Games are supposed to be tests. Fun, yes, but a test of skill, that is the way to improvement. Especially before a championship, of which I haven’t been to many in my past, to compete that is. Video gaming took a lot of my youth away. Now as I am understanding a bit more of the breadth of the material world, the trend allowed certain “demonic” activity to enter into my life. Not in the sense of Hollywood would deceive. It appears most of the demonic activity we encouter is unrecognizable as a soul hazard, worse yet we lose focus on Christ.

Time permitting, I do like the idea sketching on the weekdays, then on the weekend try to draw a comic. I have so much going on, I can only squeeze in what I can, where I can. It seems like I am constantly in a conversation with a person and never get any real work done! It’s not as bad as I make it out to be, but there are process improvements that always need to be make to be more efficient and effective at work.

Exercise is also important, and I let that slip from me. God Willing, I have another hike ahead of me. Being with a small group of brothers on such an adventure, it such a great time, lots of memory and bonding, especially when Christ is at the center of all of it.

It’s getting late, and tomorrow is going to be here before I know it. Lot’s to do, and time is moving too quickly. The year is soon to be half over. I think Great Lent plays a great deal in the passage of time. After this one, I finally understand a very base level understanding of “ecclesia” or being ‘called out’. We are being called out the Material World; into Reality, the Truth (Christ).

Thank you all for staying with me. I do know I had a bit of a dry spell. Again, I don’t like writing too many posts without having a Comic. How long have I been doing this? 22 or so years? I think it began in 2003 when I first started drawing Sans Merit. I had another comic afterwards a short lived Penny Arcade clone. I think Synthetic Wisdom started around 2009. 16 years. I thought I might have to stop, but it wasn’t the comic that needed to end, it was some mentality around it.

Here’s to 16 years of Synthetic Wisdom, and God Willing at least another 16!

May God Bless us all!

An update to show you i’m not gone. I should keep this post up. I try to write some, then mark them as private.

Got some big changes happening this year. I am trying to find some time to finish a comic I started last year. This is also the 2nd week of Lent, which means life is being tested more. Time is moving faster, more services, more.. events happening. There is also work in real life, which causes late nights and early morning.

Not much time for creating either writing or drawing. It’s the way things are.

I am sketchbooking after a couple month long break, so there’s that. The idea is a little discipline goes a long way. No pressure, no anxiety. Just moving forward. It’s all good.

Thank you all for your time. Let’s see what tomorrow brings.