Still improoving. Faltering a little bit, but I know what steps I need to take, and not giving up is the key (in this instance). Faith helps too. Learning helps me grow in Faith as well. Very grateful I get to combine the two. Going to be a busy week as an important day is coming up.
I will try to live by this quote more.
Been very busy these past couple of weeks and months. Doing a lot of reading and service. All fulfilling.
Thank God for the Good Men in my life whom I can depend on and help me ascend towards Christ with each other. I am a sinner, but the idea is repentance, and service to others helps me focus on what is important.
Slowly getting back into studying art. First is creating a habit, then the next step taking online courses on learning the human form. Mastering comes after learning, and as of now I am far away from that, so I choose not to think about it. I will try to post anything I feel is good enough. I am even work on a comic or two. Abandon any storylines and characters and return to the original. I don’t know yet. The desire to continue telling stories with Synthetic Wisdom is leaving me. It was far too difficult, and I would rather stop before I get into any more trouble. Again, I am toying with the idea of ending the comic altogether. I can do whatever I want with it, but does it benefit the Church is the next question? Perhaps there is a way I can do it, but as of now, it is not necessary.
Retail!? may be finished, but I will need to remake the storyline, not too much, just make some major changes and remove some characters and elements that are inappropriate. I may end up selling the game to another company and have them take over the production. I do have more games I would like to develop, but that is far in the future. As for now, I need to focus and take baby steps towards self-improvement. Little victories. Each day at a time. That sort of thing. To help make like more rightly ordered. That is the overall goal, but it cannot happen in one large movement, but on in small steps.
I would like to start painting again. I know what I want to paint, but that is far beyond my skill, and I have to learn the basics of the human form. It won’t happen overnight that I finally understand “art” and light and shadow, but only through applied focus and learning the skill. I don’t have a natural talent for art, I realize that, but learning a skill doesn’t need to have natural talent as a pre-requisite. Some skills, perhaps, but that is not my concern about all things, or anything else that I need not focus on or worry about. As of now, I am terrible at art, but only if I work hard will one day I will not be terrible at art and achieve the goals I want to achieve. To make myself feel better and make the world a better place. Even if it takes 50 years until I finally understand “art” it would be worth the struggle, especially because I can use prayer to help me through the struggle. We shall see though.
“God became man that man might become God”
Father Athanasius (ca 298–373)
You’ve heard the old maxim “The greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he [the devil] doesn’t exist)
“Modern” Materialist times recreates that same maxism “The greatest trick the pharmaceutical industry ever pulled was convincing the world that Christ doesn’t(never) existed.” They believe pills and power are all that man is and ever shall be.
Man was born from the Earth and he constantly consumes the Earth trying (in vain) to become whole, such is the way with “Cultural Marxism” or any other “ism” that is against Christ and His Body simply because He exists trying to save humanity, individual by individual. Conquering death by death.
I will conclude with a quote from Saint Lazarus, who after his resurrection never smiled until he saw a man steal some pottery saying, “a piece of dirt steals a piece of dirt.”
My son, if sinners entice thee,
Consent thou not.
If they say: ‘Come with us,
Let us lie in wait for blood,
Let us lurk for the innocent without cause;
Let us swallow them up alive as the grave,
And whole, as those that go down into the pit;
We shall find all precious substance,
We shall fill our houses with spoil;
Cast in thy lot among us;
Let us all have one purse’—
My son, walk not thou in the way with them,
Restrain thy foot from their path;
For their feet run to evil,
And they make haste to shed blood.
For in vain the net is spread
In the eyes of any bird;
And these lie in wait for their own blood,
They lurk for their own lives.
So are the ways of every one that is greedy of gain;
It taketh away the life of the owners thereof.
Worked on the game a bit yesterday. I’m getting closer to getting that instruction manual done. The game works. I helped my friends play a classic 1 v 1 game. That was my first time being a Game Master to my own creation. I have played solo and with partners, there are no teams in this game. There can be alliances, but the idea is such that only one can attain a goal and its nearly impossible at this point for multiple tiers to exist. You either win, or you don’t. Like all man made “transactions” of this reality, there is a reason why that transaction begins, one party seeks some <i>thing</i> from another.
Perhaps tomorrow night I can work on it a bit more. There is a lot going on all the time.