Schwofield

I’m still working on getting more strips up.  I don’t have a buffer so you get what you get when you get it.  I still wish this wasn’t so, but on the road to doin’ better I need to take a little time off, a day or so to get my momentum going as well as putting up a system of constant updates.

As of now, not people come here, I’m not upset by it,  perhaps if I posted better in the past, if I did a lot of things differently I would end up in a different place.  Had I not fallen in love in my teens with an idea that was implanted me, I entertain the idea that I wouldn’t have made and kept up Schwofield as long as I have.  Many friends and acquaintances I would not have kept, see as how love doesn’t exist unless its manipulation, and as of now I return to my stomping grounds, back to this dying town, for what I can no longer say.  Spirituality isn’t like it used to be now that I am getting older and realize what position I am actually, how much potential and energy I’ve wasted because I, and many other citizens have been under existential assault that is aided by infinite wealth.  I have to face the facts, the enemy has won, there is no such thing as freedom.  If your blood isn’t blue, there is nothing to guarantee your blood safety.  The wealthy can have any anyone removed off the face of the earth, and there exists no one that can stop them.

Thats the power of mind control.  People will willingly give up liberties if it means silencing those they don’t like.  This post is supposed to be whiney, depression sucks a lot, its a cop out, and its a hurdle that can’t be easily crossed, and once you find yourself in this little corner of your own mind you are trapped.  It takes a lot of money, effort, and time to escape.  According to the APA there is no escape, just conditions that have be maintained with dollars until that wonderful day when my ego is longer that presence of I.  Thats all the low class have really, we weren’t supposed to ever become aware, just be mindless puppets that die and sacrifice each other so that the ruling class can be the freesest part of humanity.

So what Lilit is here, or Chaos is here,  I’ve lost the desire to care, just like  humanity has lost its desire to care of itself unless profit can be made.  There can be no love when Mammon is Americas GodKing, or its mother: Lilit roams the Earth, bathing in blood, lusting after the endless destruction that the ruling class depends on.  There is no way out for the working class, we are supposed to die, and our military will ensure that we will wiped out, the ruling class changes nonprotected classes into enemies of the state, then the military and leos are free to slaughter their own citizens.  They don’t work for the people, no Americas miltary isn’t used for defense or peace, its used for fear and propping up enemies so we can justify more death and destruction many years later.

It’s ok that members of the US government and the IC community commits treason, they are above the working class.  They are the law.  They have reasons for killing and sacrificing children, and anything they say is better than gold.  It’s debt that someone else will have to pay.

It just really sucks to be alone, and it sucks even worse to be a philosopher, life sucks for everyone and I am very lucky to be who and what I am, it doesn’t solve the more pressing issues, I just have to wait another 70 or so years before I am gone.  I have a lot of heartache to go through in the meantime, but at least I don’t have to look forward to happy memories.  Relationships and happiness is something only for the wealthy, ruling class.  Everything else is just a commercial to make the ruling class wealthier.  Who needs representation when you have Millionaires running the show?

What is a man?  A human, what are the rules entirely of how a man should operate?  What principles, what vices are necessary to fulfill the human experience.  The skin protects the organs, and the organs are focused on keeping the body alive.  Man has lost the will to fight back, but every path to resistance has been examined and run through,  what can a man do except limit his speech?  To protect the body, the skin isn’t enough, it is the seat of the will that protects man from threats both real and existential.  Which is greater?  Depending on the governing bodies of forces of the existential it would always be the latter since man is now enlightened to his own fate.  His invisible shackles of the social contract.  He willingly asks for more locks and chains, and more burdened upon him, and any questions are met with arrogance and dismissal in a land with at least one no accountability factor.

In regards to creating projects and things I like, it feels good to create, and I hope to keep this pace up.  I always talk about my target goal, and I think i’m at the point where I start to like what I’m doing.  Is there need for improvement?  Oh yeah!  I’ll improve what I can, whenst I can.  Tablets like my Surface have drastically improved the ease of creating, but I did fall into a good route those years I was simply just ‘scanning’ it in.  Thank you for reading this and if anyones still following along with meh madness, I mean update schedule and essays and such.

I’ll find a way to upload my archives onto this site as well as another backup.  I’ve hit the hundred mark while a go, and I’m actually kind of happy this happened I lost the database.  I wanted Sans Merit to disappear for a while.  Add it later.  The next goal is a thousand, and at my current pace its doable in less than three years.  I would like to see what the thousandth strip would look like, will I be FINALLY free from the same perspective nearly all the time?  Why are they always walking?  It is healthy for the mind and body.  That’s why the Synth Wis crew are always talkin’.  I used to take a lot more risks, but not yet, i’m not ready.

I’m ready to start accepting my topic for essays.  I like writing these posts when I get inspired to, I’ll try to retain their focus to Schwofield stuff.  In a webcomic I will see the art first and the writing second, but the ones I’ve been exposed to are all post Penny Arcade.   Mike set many standards for what a web comic should be.  I don’t want to have to atone for my sins of not drawing when I should, so lets look to a future of hard works completed, good luck and success to all of your projects.  May you always remain in Light.

Yes, yes, the previous site was lost last year, or early this year.  I should be bummed, but I have my strips, both the good ones and the bad ones (pause for laughter).  This is very charged time right now, lots of energy, mistakes at work, yet some successes as well.  Some spectacular failures, maybe I’m in the wrong job, or maybe I just need to focus.  I do have hope that a new product will come along that I can sell, not here, but for my real job.

Mr. G illmore is coming over to discuss a project.  I’m sure we can make it happen.  I have a good idea about the overall story and what I want to accomplish, with his help we can write it down in the right order of words, then the fun part, seeking out a way to pay for it.  After that, we produce it.

What is this mystery project?  I will let you know later, I am terrible at keeping secrets.  This is why I never went into the private or government sector, I abhor secrets, I always felt ability can overcome deception.  That’s being test as we speak.

I’m almost done with the next strip, and then soon comes another.  The Surface does make it much easier draw muh stripz, that doesn’t mean they are getting better. If you want that, then I need to produce more.  As a generation X\Millennial being disaffected and emotionally dead is a way of life.  It stunts a lot of growth, but there is only way to improve this.

I’ll try to write more later.  Good luck and success with all of your projects, and always, ALWAYS remain in Light.

-Ahavat Olam