Projects

by on April 2, 2018 at 2:36 am
Posted In: Uncategorized

It seems a new breeze is blowing, its not strong, but if the sails can catch it right, and the seas stay calm ‘a course, a lot of new changes are ahead.  Currently learning Python, so I can develop some apps for work and for Schwofield.

The first one is easy as my job has a lot of repetitive features, this would help out greatly.  The second app is for another project, that although has been on the drawing table.  I also have a sketch thats about half finished on inking without text, so do not think I’ve forgotten anything.  I think of Synthetic Wisdom even when I’m not there for it.  Without digressing any further, the second app is for a card game i’ve had for many years now.  Now it seems feasible.  I’m not worried about finances at this stage, I lost my first prototype.  It wasn’t well designed and some of it got damaged.  I can’t believe its been with me all these years to be honest.

There is a quite a bit of design work done, and now I’m on the pre-Testing phase.  Rolling out a new prototype, (re)print the rules, and playtest as I add the “multiplayer” aspect to it.  This is designed for solo, or up to possibly 20 or so people, but that would take quite a long time.  I don’t recommend it at this stage.  I also came up with 2 more purely educational card games, that would require a bit of research, but its doable, and very customizable, so polyglots would also be rewarded.

I’m going to have to start looking for writers to help create worlds as, Duroc has a game we want to work on, it will take precedence, but I will also make my game as a way to beta test design ideas for his game.

The next step is art, which is also the final step, as that includes packaging and miniatures.  I am doing a lot more art, as I’m the principle artist for my prototype, but that will have to be outsourced as well unless I improve drastically.

Let’s hope this next week is a good one.

 Comment 

Eleven fixed

by on February 11, 2018 at 2:41 am
Posted In: Uncategorized

I’m still working on getting more strips up.  I don’t have a buffer so you get what you get when you get it.  I still wish this wasn’t so, but on the road to doin’ better I need to take a little time off, a day or so to get my momentum going as well as putting up a system of constant updates.

As of now, not people come here, I’m not upset by it,  perhaps if I posted better in the past, if I did a lot of things differently I would end up in a different place.  Had I not fallen in love in my teens with an idea that was implanted me, I entertain the idea that I wouldn’t have made and kept up Schwofield as long as I have.  Many friends and acquaintances I would not have kept, see as how love doesn’t exist unless its manipulation, and as of now I return to my stomping grounds, back to this dying town, for what I can no longer say.  Spirituality isn’t like it used to be now that I am getting older and realize what position I am actually, how much potential and energy I’ve wasted because I, and many other citizens have been under existential assault that is aided by infinite wealth.  I have to face the facts, the enemy has won, there is no such thing as freedom.  If your blood isn’t blue, there is nothing to guarantee your blood safety.  The wealthy can have any anyone removed off the face of the earth, and there exists no one that can stop them.

Thats the power of mind control.  People will willingly give up liberties if it means silencing those they don’t like.  This post is supposed to be whiney, depression sucks a lot, its a cop out, and its a hurdle that can’t be easily crossed, and once you find yourself in this little corner of your own mind you are trapped.  It takes a lot of money, effort, and time to escape.  According to the APA there is no escape, just conditions that have be maintained with dollars until that wonderful day when my ego is longer that presence of I.  Thats all the low class have really, we weren’t supposed to ever become aware, just be mindless puppets that die and sacrifice each other so that the ruling class can be the freesest part of humanity.

So what Lilit is here, or Chaos is here,  I’ve lost the desire to care, just like  humanity has lost its desire to care of itself unless profit can be made.  There can be no love when Mammon is Americas GodKing, or its mother: Lilit roams the Earth, bathing in blood, lusting after the endless destruction that the ruling class depends on.  There is no way out for the working class, we are supposed to die, and our military will ensure that we will wiped out, the ruling class changes nonprotected classes into enemies of the state, then the military and leos are free to slaughter their own citizens.  They don’t work for the people, no Americas miltary isn’t used for defense or peace, its used for fear and propping up enemies so we can justify more death and destruction many years later.

It’s ok that members of the US government and the IC community commits treason, they are above the working class.  They are the law.  They have reasons for killing and sacrificing children, and anything they say is better than gold.  It’s debt that someone else will have to pay.

It just really sucks to be alone, and it sucks even worse to be a philosopher, life sucks for everyone and I am very lucky to be who and what I am, it doesn’t solve the more pressing issues, I just have to wait another 70 or so years before I am gone.  I have a lot of heartache to go through in the meantime, but at least I don’t have to look forward to happy memories.  Relationships and happiness is something only for the wealthy, ruling class.  Everything else is just a commercial to make the ruling class wealthier.  Who needs representation when you have Millionaires running the show?

 Comment 

Reality

by on February 10, 2018 at 3:33 am
Posted In: Uncategorized

This was a lot of fun.  Mary shows  up, talks about her Mother.  A woman who drinks wine and watches an endless fire that seemingly does not consume its fuel; bored with life.  Who is she? Is there any continuity in the strip?  Does there need to be?  The sketchbook adventures notwithstanding, not much can be done with this comic in its current state except enjoy the ride as much as I do.  The problem with stream of consciousness strip making is its hard to get it kick started into full gear.  If I had more readers I would ask if they want me to take on a writer to make it funnier or at least more entertaining.  Why do I stick with these characters?  Because they are my Synthetic Wisdom, I’m not that good of a philosopher, so this is the result of my quest.  With your love and support, and most importantly me finding discipline within this, my spiritual task.  I don’t want to end this period in a bad way, tomorrow is a brand new day and hopefully as prolific.

I’ve got a good process agoin’ and now its time for the application.  The skill will undoubtedly improve with tenacity.  Many ways up the mountain and such.  I’ve got a lot of work ahead of me, I mean, a lot of love, this needs to be my tea ceremony, my sanctuary, my moment of moments as it were.  Or not,  its whatever life is, so yes, back to the acceptance of the previous post.  I’m still frustrated with my art in two ways, in which I am quite stubborn to learn, perhaps with time and Hashems grace, I will learn to incorporate more advanced techniques and perspectives in the future.  As for now, the burden isn’t in each strip, its now on the time in between creating a new strip.  I like concepts, and this blog will be a public record of a though process being penned and never truly edited.  Minor edits may occur for grammar and syntax, but as you can read I certainly don’t find them all.

It really does feel like I’m fighting a multidimensional war with a lot of forces and terrible split of factions all hiding something.  Is it overwhelming, not really.  As long as I stick to Adonais guidance through the darkness I’m in, I seem to be where I need to be.  So even though I am surrounded by everlasting wealth, im not allowed to tap into a certain amount of it.  Part of it is sloth, and another my own personal love of wisdom, and its own kind of damage.  I don’t think many people can escape life without scars or regrets. This is why the middle way is so attractive, it represents the only kind of freedom one can have with the world and the self.  Even at my advanced age of Thirty Three, I still make bad decisions based on unchecked desires.  I’m a terrible mystic in this regard.  In what regard am I good mystic?  I can’t say either, but I know I can’t be bad at all times.  Accepting and trying to minimize the cost of my impulses is hard enough without attracting guilt on top of it, seek acceptance than release could be attained much easier.  Acceptance and understanding, its the best way to capture an idea and make it your own.

Perhaps to trap that collect of chemicals, and then one day dissipate it to make room for new and better mixtures.  The Ubermensch doesn’t seem so frightening nor as unattainable, and Buddha even less so, there is nothing.    Some mixtures are harder to dissipate than others, but there is always a way.  All rocks become sand.

 Comment 

A certain kind of freedom

by on February 10, 2018 at 12:02 am
Posted In: Uncategorized

What is a man?  A human, what are the rules entirely of how a man should operate?  What principles, what vices are necessary to fulfill the human experience.  The skin protects the organs, and the organs are focused on keeping the body alive.  Man has lost the will to fight back, but every path to resistance has been examined and run through,  what can a man do except limit his speech?  To protect the body, the skin isn’t enough, it is the seat of the will that protects man from threats both real and existential.  Which is greater?  Depending on the governing bodies of forces of the existential it would always be the latter since man is now enlightened to his own fate.  His invisible shackles of the social contract.  He willingly asks for more locks and chains, and more burdened upon him, and any questions are met with arrogance and dismissal in a land with at least one no accountability factor.

In regards to creating projects and things I like, it feels good to create, and I hope to keep this pace up.  I always talk about my target goal, and I think i’m at the point where I start to like what I’m doing.  Is there need for improvement?  Oh yeah!  I’ll improve what I can, whenst I can.  Tablets like my Surface have drastically improved the ease of creating, but I did fall into a good route those years I was simply just ‘scanning’ it in.  Thank you for reading this and if anyones still following along with meh madness, I mean update schedule and essays and such.

I’ll find a way to upload my archives onto this site as well as another backup.  I’ve hit the hundred mark while a go, and I’m actually kind of happy this happened I lost the database.  I wanted Sans Merit to disappear for a while.  Add it later.  The next goal is a thousand, and at my current pace its doable in less than three years.  I would like to see what the thousandth strip would look like, will I be FINALLY free from the same perspective nearly all the time?  Why are they always walking?  It is healthy for the mind and body.  That’s why the Synth Wis crew are always talkin’.  I used to take a lot more risks, but not yet, i’m not ready.

I’m ready to start accepting my topic for essays.  I like writing these posts when I get inspired to, I’ll try to retain their focus to Schwofield stuff.  In a webcomic I will see the art first and the writing second, but the ones I’ve been exposed to are all post Penny Arcade.   Mike set many standards for what a web comic should be.  I don’t want to have to atone for my sins of not drawing when I should, so lets look to a future of hard works completed, good luck and success to all of your projects.  May you always remain in Light.

 

 Comment